Friday, September 17, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
It convinced me more and more that medication or chemicals get prescribed, and that there are probably many people who live with things that are never treated. I mean treatment that will really heal them, mis-diagnosed, and even medicine that is entirely unnecessary. The only thing that I could do was do what I was doing until they were willing to operate (4 years later). It was a long road, but I am glad its over now.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I was at a friends for a Birthday party...our children are playmates.
I helped with the occasion, and when all was said and done and there was myself her and another mom left I only lasted 20 minutes with the female chatter. I was tired...not sure why that I can't seem to keep up with it...anyway her husband was watching Iron Man and the kids were in the living room. I moved in there to join them and we ended up talking politics...lol...and then I relaxed...I must be odd...her friend got ready to go home and we were all together then...and I still ended up talking more politics...and now that I look back she ended up reading the flyers while we did...I tried to steer the convo back to something more inclusive...but at the end of the day it is so hard for me to do women's chatter...funny...at least I thought...good thing somehow we are still friends...I guess you like me or you don't...maybe children are a universal glue...lol
Monday, September 22, 2008
Friday, August 29, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Its been awhile since I saw your smile
Its been awhile since I heard you laugh
Its been awhile since I had more than a moment to listen to you
Its been awhile, and there is nothing better than listening,
There is no "what ifs" there is no "I wonder" there is no
There is I am glad that I was there, there is I know life
happens, there is sometimes that is just the way it is
The truth is, the only way for regret is if I choose not to live,
love, laugh and play
I choose to remember, I choose to keep the things that
felt so good a part of me, and I choose to care
Choices are not easy at times, but the only way to move
forward is to know where you have been and to know that
there is a path forward and to walk there
Its like the sunrise and sunset, at first you wait for
something to happen and enjoy the beauty as it fills the day
with strength and light
In the end you know that even when something ends there
is something beautiful there too
As something ends if we can find the sunset's beauty in it,
then it may be easier to find the next sunrise and the
strength in the light of another day
Choices, they are what changes the tide in our lives, but
How many of us realize the strength of them?
Monday, April 21, 2008
I heard the gentleness in your voice and knew that there was more to you than the whispers I heard in my heart
I read the letters in your heart, and remember who you are
It was the color that life has cloaked you with that seems so vibrant to me
It is the shades that have helped carve into you that keep my dreams full of memories
At the brink of the dawn is where the songs seem to cradle my heart with yours
Its at the end of the sunset that the feeling that envelopes me is quiet words
Forgetting is not something so easy to do
How can one forget, How can one put away, moments that keep us connected and remind us we are only human
Monday, March 17, 2008
The first thing that I realize is that I do know where I fit and know my place in the world
I do understand, what I do, and that I am here for a reason
I don't know where all the i's will be dotted or the t's will be crossed, but the one thing that I know is how I fit
I am often called a leader, but that is not what I do, I am the supporting structure if I can use that analogy
I look at things from a broad perspective and I help make the ends meet
My role is to help, and that is what I do best
I do many things that may look like I direct, but at the end of the day it is more of a place to help aid and guide making the ends meet
My place is behind the scenes, and my place is a place of support
I know this is where my greatest strength is and where I am able to do the most good
The hands to help, even though my hands are too small to do it all, they are just big enough to enlarge someone else's territory...as someone once put it
I don't mind what I do, and I really love to see others succeed
I know that along the way that gets muddied, but when the smoke clears as it were, the success that I see is the success that comes when all hands are working together for the good that is needed.
My hands are too small, and my back cannot carry the world, but in some small part, my place in this world is a joint, or a brace, or a support beam that is who I am...
I am "A Quiet Thunder"...which is funny, because my supervisor told me last week that I have alot of "Thunder", and I said that I don't have much, but he insisted I had alot...I whispered to his wife that my native name is "A Quiet Thunder," that made her laugh, and somehow your name is recognized even though it is never declared...
Yet, I know my place in this world, and it is as "A Quiet Thunder," because the quiet things that I do have affect that is heard by many...not as a leader, but ultimately as one who supports those who do lead...
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I broke down and bought my first one day, it is just a starter camera, and really it will help save a bit of money because David loves to take pictures, but sometimes I don't want a picture of his favorite cartoon that is playing on Treehouse...lol
So, ya know...just so I can keep encouraging his little creativity and save a bit on these pictures...I broke down and got my first one...yeah...anyway...not that exciting...but fun for me and my lil man...
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Freezing death of two girls shines light on Sask. reserve in disarray
REGINA - The freezing deaths of two young girls has shone a harsh light on a "bankrupt" Saskatchewan reserve with a litany of social problems and a leadership at war with itself.
"I think we are going to need some help," Chief Robert Whitehead of the Yellow Quill First Nation said in a telephone interview Thursday. "The situation we are in, it's a sad situation."
As police continued to investigate the deaths of three-year-old Kaydance Pauchay and her one-year-old sister Santana in a snowy field early Tuesday morning, politicians, the community and its leaders were looking at the problems behind the tragedy.
The need for action was a common thread - what to do was more elusive.
Problems such as alcohol abuse, suicide, lack of housing and mould plague the community.
The band also has money troubles. In 1999 runaway deficits forced the federal government put the reserve under third-party management to maintain services for its residents. It's remained there since.
"Basically we are a bankrupt community," Whitehead said.
Adding to the issues is an internal power struggle between the chief and band councillors that both sides say is "toxic."
Whitehead said he was confronted Thursday by council members who are angry that the chief has been so publicly vocal about the reserve's problem in the wake of the girls' deaths.
"When you have an opposition in council, what they go around doing is, while I'm out there working trying to do this and trying to do that, trying to set something up for the people, my opposition has all the time in the world to be going around spreading gossip on the reserve," Whitehead said. "What do they have to hide?"
But band councillor Donna Poorman blames the chief for the problems, saying the situation has reach a point where the council isn't even meeting regularly anymore.
"He's just basically trying to run the reserve on his own forgetting about the rest of us leaders," Poorman said. "It's just not working."
Poorman said many of the problems on the reserve relate to drugs and alcohol and a cycle of abuse that stems from residential schools.
Faced with increasing suicide rates, the band recently tried to move ahead with a bylaw banning alcohol on the reserve, but the proper paperwork was never filed with the federal government.
Alcohol is said to be at the centre of this week's tragedy.
Police say they believe the girls' father, Christopher Pauchay, 25, left his home with the children in the wee hours of Tuesday morning when wind chills were in the -50C range.
He managed to make it to a neighbour's house suffering from frostbite and hypothermia. The two girls were found in the field wearing only T-shirts and diapers. Family members say Pauchay was drinking that night.
Whitehead said Thursday that he would still like to move ahead with the alcohol ban.
But federal Indian Affairs Minister Chuck Strahl expressed doubt that such a ban would solve all the problems.
"It's very complex. Sometimes these communities have a multitude of issues they're dealing with. So just passing a bylaw doesn't make the world all right," Strahl said."It's
Monday, January 28, 2008
Some other things have happened too, some co-workers said that they have started to read Christian books and they had never done that before, and I can't and won't take credit for all of that, but I do know it is the same as the drinking, sometimes courage increases when you know you have support (others around who believe too).
It was nice to know...at a time when I feel so tired...been a busy time again...and some hard transitions for my son...still far from being over, and its not easy...a little light...but even a little light counts...
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Anyway, Happy Holidays to everyone, and for the moments that you build with your children, remember that they really do count, and they come back for them in the future in ways that may feel very special.
"Comfort, Memory Food!"....mmm...lol...Yeah...I think I like that...
Thursday, January 3, 2008
It is like a breath that suddenly goes by you, because you may feel it but you do not always see it pass by
I blinked and the weeks sped by and the moments pass too quickly
I look at my son and in the fall he will start Kindergarten...time has gone by too fast...my little boy is growing up sooooo, quickly...
I need a way to make time stand still, perhaps I will get an idea or two....lol
Sunday, December 2, 2007
I woke up this morning watching the sunrise and waiting for the day once again
The movements of the day were like waves of the sea, and sometimes they crashed over the memories and moments that have always been
I laid down tonight watching the sunset wondering how long it will be until the waves of your life and mine will mark the same land again The days have come and gone and my mind moves on, but every once in a while I remember, and wonder where you have been